Edythe

I'm hoping that 2004 is going to be a more successful year for all of us, including for those individuals who one doesn't want them to be successful (current government, the axis of evil, etc.). But I'm definitely glad 2003 is fucking over. I can definitely say it was one of my hardest working years of my life, and not just in the career aspect. "Always look ahead and not behind" was a wise phrase someone once gave me. You got to look at this way, maybe you're not fully in control of your entire destiny (death, accident, and the sort) but you're able to take control of your actions and produce the outcomes you would like if you learn to do so. I know I'm probably full of bullshit, but I've learned to accomplish some things that way. I just would like to see our world as a better place; I know that so idealistic. But, if I put my mind to a good deed then a good reward will return, and that's what I try doing most of the time. Success in whatever aspect of your life is my wish to everyone in the coming years, because nobody knew our generation would suffer so hard in society these years, well I mean the economic hardships.

Everything seems like in turmoil right now, but I think soon things may be getting better, I feel it. I'm starting a new job on Sep. 2nd and looking much forward to it because I'm tired of my current banking job. Things at the store seem to fluctuate right now, but I hope soon they become better. And I hope all of you are doing ok health & monetary wise, but I see it getting better for all of us. BTW, Vegas was alright, I had fun, lost money instead of winning it, but it was all in good fun. Hopefully, we all get to go again in the future. Looking forward to seeing you guys on Labor day and we'll have plenty of fun. Smell ya later...E.

I hope everyone's well, I know I haven't updated this shit in a while. I've been busy though. I think I'm going to be a able to relocate my job which could be 30 minutes closer to home than now. I have also planned a vegas trip w/my sister, don't take it personal if I didn't invite it's just my sis & I really haven't hung out together as adults and the opportunity for both of us came at the right time. I'm looking forward to it because it's my first decent little vacation in a fucking year. This shithole economy has not been able to provide either Roland or I an opportunity to take a break. An unfortunately I'm not able to request just any day off; I even had to switch w/a co-worker's shift for mine for this trip. I'm going w/hopes on a good $$ outcome there, I won't get cocky though. Wish me luck guys. When I return I'll let you guys know how it turned out. Later...

I know it's pathetic that I even bother to update my lj but it's either I'm too busy or I'm booted off when I try. I hope everybody's well, & if not then at least you're not in trouble w/the law or something worse. I guess everything's ok on my end except the fact that I'm really tired since tomorrow is my first break in the past week, I worked the 4th, & plus it sucked since I went to my family's instead of going to burn fireworks w/Roland. I hope you guys did something fun. You know we need to set up a day when we can go paintballin' since I can get discounted tickets, & especially a summer night since the park closes at 11pm. Two more months to go for me & then I can possibly move my job closer to home & possibly have more free time to hang out. Well I hope I get to write in lj soon again or hope to see you guys before then,for now "Hasta la vista, baby..."

A 45-yr old dude came in to the store today, wanted something to clear his system cuz he works for the feds & just tested pos+ for pot but he's using it for back pain before he works out only. Doctors said if he's not addicted it's okay for him to smoke. His employer's going to make him go to drug addiction counseling if tested + again,& mentioned he gets 3 chances b4 getting fired. This country's drug laws fucking suck. A doctor said it was okay to fucking smoke yet the gov says no. Hey I've got a family history & am at risk of glaucoma yet I can't smoke(legally).Yet the 3 most popular drugs:cigs,alcohol,& caffeine can do more harm than pot & they're legal. And the fucking comercials on drug-free america are fucking hilarious, come on, ppl are too fucking lazy to pick up a gun to shoot someone like one ad states. Just pisses me off & I'm going to smoke tonite just becuz of this,only to relieve stress.
I'm sooo sorry I haven't posted in such a while,I've been so busy at my jobs. Stayed home the past couple of weeks just cuz I don't have the energy on my free time or just enough to get the errands done. My bank job is closed on memorial day & recently frankie posted a karaoke bar he went to. I'm hoping we can plan something for that weekend of the like. I hope everyone's doing okay on all aspects of life. I'll try to post more often but this is my post for now.

Like Roland mentioned celebrating Jason's b-day saturday night was fun at dungeon. Sunday felt lazy & sleepy, but was enlightened when my buddy shed some light on a job decision & made me see the bigger picture. Look forward to more fun, drugged out weekends like this past one in the near future. Had Biola school student give a survey about an hour ago w/questions on my beliefs in god, morals, & jesus christ, blah, blah, blah, it was entertaining though.

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Just found out that my cousin who's been staying w/my mom & sis has betrayed our trust. She tells us she's doing one thing yet she does another. What makes me upset is that she has us worried about her whereabouts. I don't give a fuck what she wants to do, she just hasn't called to let us know she's alright after she took off to washington dc this past Thursday. This is after the fact she told my mom she'd call the following night to let us know she arrived well. Plus we don't know who she's with. To make this clear, this cousin isn't from the states, she from my mom's home country in central america. She's fucking 29 years old. But she decided to come to the states 6 months ago to earn a bit of money to pay off some debts & see if she recovers emotionally from being ditched b4 she got married 4 yrs ago by some dude who's parents disliked my cuz because she wasn't in their social status. Whatever, my mom's responsible for her well-being here & if my aunt, her mother, were to question where she is or if there was an emergency we don't where the fuck she is. Plus she's planning to stay in the states after all without letting us know about it. It's just disappointing. Her actions are "shady". I'm supposed to pick her up from the airport monday night when she was supposed to return from dc. I'll have plenty of things to say to her then.
Besides my personal concerns, I'm looking forward to Jason's b-day this friday, & I was able to get saturday off from work, so it's party time. Won't be able to go to helter or perversion but we gotta do something friday & saturday. Later folks.

Sorry guys I haven't written in a while but I've been so busy & tired, it's pathetic. First & foremost I want thank God (j/k),no really I want to thank everyone who showed up at blue mondays on the 27th of january, I hope you guys had as good of a time as I did. The music was alright but seeing everyone was ecstatic especially since I haven't been out w/my buds in so long. I appreciate the fact that ya guys showed on a weekday even though most of you had to work or go to school the next day. It was fun. Nothing much going on since, just work. No mula on my end either which makes going out seem like it'll be a while. Yo Ricky if you read this call me dork. I agree w/jason maybe the club scene is kind of gettin' tirin' too. When are we going to see the giger pieces? We should plan somethin'. Any movies, except chick flicks;anyone know of any good reviewed indie flicks playing in hollywood? Or any cool conventions going on. Something. Besides all your problems & money worries I hope everyone's doing alright. It seems like everyone's having a car issue lately. Well talk to you guys later...give a ring if you'd like to do anything.

Work is cool, then it's ok, then it just fucking sux, then it's gets a little better, then it plummets so low it makes you look incompetent, then it settles back to normal. Think I'd rather be a robot to not feel work like a ball & chain. It's frustating when you can't satisfy ppl in customer service,'what service?you're cheating your customers' they say. I don't make the fucking rules,I just have to follow them to keep my job. Ppl don't even read the stuff they sign and then they question shit,aaahhhh!Wake up (fill in the blank) people(howard stern fans know).Just a little frustated,not a good day.Looking forward to hanging out w/my friends again in 2 weeks, remember the 27th you'll regress back into the 80's again.

Well roland finally was able to convince me to put my pic as an icon,scary isn't it. I hate fucking taking pics, but I guess he was able to take some decent ones. I know you guys will be shocked & disturbed to see these, I can even hear the screams thru my pc. I hope you guys had a decent holiday, I was whining at first, but it turned out better than I thought it would & I received more gifts than expected, all cool, w/the exception of not getting enough sleep on my scheduled day off. Plz let me know whaz up for new year's. Later....

Well it's nice to hear your productive weekends.Nothing much done here.Did go to a birthday breakfast for roland's dad on sunday.Was wondering what you guys are doing new year's eve because I've got new year's day off & I can have a little fun.Don't know what's going on at clubs cuz I haven't been to them in a while.Some feedback on that would be great.Saturday,one of the assistant bosses at work let me know that I haven't met the minimum expectations of the job yet,that sucked,definitely can relate to slowdive,guess i'll try harder.See ya.....

Well i'm glad things are better for some of you. My mind is still preoccupied w/worries, bills, money woes, and the list goes on....if only I could stop time. Congrats to wax&wane & demented, although, slow down a bit cuz it's only a couple of months dorks. Thanks for those who offered their support in recent days & care to listen to my worries. I hope you all had a decent Thanksgiving, mine was alright except that the grub was pretty good, family reunions suck though. Later folks...